Meghan Markle was suicidal in royal family but claims she wasn't allowed to get help
By MIRROR | 1 month ago
Meghan Markle has said she had suicidal thoughts during her time in the royal family, saying she "thought it would have solved everything for everyone".
During her interview with Oprah Winfrey she claims that she went to "the institution" to say she needed help but was told she wasn't allowed to.
She said she was "ashamed" to admit it at the time but "knew that if she didn't say it she would do it".
She says it was a "real and frightening and constant thought" but that Prince Harry "cradled her".
The Duchess of Sussex said she "couldn't be left alone" when she was around five months pregnant with Archie.
When Oprah asks her directly if she was "thinking of harming herself or having suicidal thoughts" Meghan replies "yes".
She claims she asked one of the "most senior" people if she could get help but was told it wouldn't be good for the institution.
Meghan reached out to one of Princess Diana's friends for help.
Joining the interview later, Harry admits it was very difficult for him and that it sent him to a "dark place".
He also admits to being ashamed to say that Meghan needed help.
Last week, Harry spoke to their decision to quit the royal family during an interview with James Corden.
In a clip for The Late Late Show the men took an open top bus tour around LA.
When James asked why they decided to quit, Harry quickly corrected him, saying "It was never walking away. It was stepping back rather than stepping down.”
Speaking about their decision, he said: "It was a really difficult environment, as I think a lot of people saw. We all know what the British press can be like.
"It was destroying my mental health. I was like, this is toxic.
"So I did what any husband and any father would do, I need to get my family out of here. But we never walked away.
"As far as I'm concerned, whatever decisions are made on that side, I will never walk away.
"I will always be contributing. But my life is service, so wherever I am in the world it's always going to be the same thing."
He also spoke about how he saw his future away from the royal family.
He said: "My life is always going to be about public service and Meghan signed up for that.
"The two of us enjoy doing that and trying to bring compassion and try to make people happy, and try to change the world in any small way we can."
The interview, along with Harry’s Late Late Show chat with James Corden, were filmed before the Queen’s announcement that ‘Megxit’ will be permanent.
There were reports that the Oprah show had to be re-edited following her decision to take their royal patronages away.
Meghan and Harry announced their decision to step back from their senior roles in January 2020 on Instagram, reportedly giving the royals just 10 minutes notice of their statement.
Charles and William were reportedly furious, and the Queen called an emergency meeting to work out the logistics - the Sandringham Summit.
In March, they carried out their final royal engagement, joining the rest of The Firm for the Commonwealth Day Service.
According to royal author Omid Scobie, it was an emotional day behind the scenes but Meghan still found humour with a last joke about her hat.
In their book Finding Freedom, Omid and his co-author Carolyn Durand describe what happened on that historical day.
They write: "Harry quietly slipped through the door of the 1844 Room to say hello, and the reality - and the emotions - finally set in.
"Meghan turned around to hug goodbye the last remaining people in the room, including an author of this book.
"With the state room almost empty except for a few familiar faces, the tears the duchess has been holding back were free to flow.
"She embraced some of the dedicated team members whose tireless efforts - to promote the couple's work, launch landmark projects, and deal with the near-daily crisis brought on by the tabloids - had come to an abrupt end.
"'I can't believe this', she said, hugging one of the young female aides she had become close with.
"Though Team Sussex was a much smaller operation than the more sophisticated offices at Clarence House and Kensington Palace, in the short space of a year since setting up, they had become like family."
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