I am in a five-year relationship with someone – we are best friends, childhood sweethearts and ridiculously well-matched. It has honestly been such a perfect relationship.
We often talked about the future and I was always content – until I had to move to Latin America for a six-month work placement.
The huge time difference made it a struggle to talk to each other. But we kept going due to how strong our relationship was when I left. Then I met a man who I completely fell for.
I tried really hard to fight the attraction for the majority of the time that I was there – but it was impossible to ignore.
This man and I became best friends during my time away and he knew about my boyfriend. But one thing led to another and a couple of weeks before I left we started geting intimate.
It was the most intense and passionate experience of my entire life and he felt the same. However, I do entirely understand how wrong it was. I am now home and back to normality but everything feels different, especially hiding such a big secret from everyone, including my boyfriend.
I can’t help but try to cling on to my relationship after everything we’ve been through but it feels like it can’t compare to the passion I felt when I was away.
I still talk to the man abroad every day and feel lost without him. We talk about how much we miss each other and how incredible everything used to be and how much we wish we could be together.
I really don’t know what to do for the best and it’s occupying every second of my day.