POISONOUS LOVE

 ‘Words hardly of romantic chats come out of my past and are replayed on the tape of my mind constantly. Caged by love, I hear whispers of pain vibrate through my soul and ashes of my heart drop in the feet of my earth’, Cara narrates.

Cara Maina, has been married to John Maina for the last two years, and she says it’s been the worst moments of her life. She says she met John at an M-pesa she was working at in Mathare near where they stay now, then fresh from high school, John was sweet and extraordinary. He was different from the rest of the men she knew. He represented a husband material, a man with a golden heart, these qualities drove her heart fast and slow at the same time whenever she spotted him.

‘His tantalized smile teased my soul, his wise eyes beyond any decency, I kept yearning to be his wife wherever he stirred my ego. He was a great man’ she continuous. But now her heart roars like a sick engine, he keeps ripping her apart in ways she’s grown to know. All the traits that pushed her to him are nowhere to be seen since that day she became pregnant. ‘Since that day, everything changed’ a thin tear falls to her right cheek and she quickly rubs it away. She’s a sad woman, having been raised by a single mother, who struggled so much to bring food home, she’d sworn that her children will never go through what she went through, that her children will have a father figure to provide for them and look up to. So when she found John, every little piece of her dream fell into place, or so she thought.