When I was in class eight, I attempted suicide - Crossover 101 host

 Grace [Photo: Courtesy]

Sassy Crossover 101 host Grace Ekirapa has opened up, revealing that she attempted suicide twice.

Through four short clips on her Instagram page dubbed, Finding hope away from Depression and Suicide, Ekirapa disclosed that she was depressed, surrounded by negativity and attempted to end it all by taking pills.

She said she was 14 when she first wanted to take her own life by swallowing a concoction of 18 pills before attempting it again three years later.

As a 17-year-old, the beauty revealed that she took as much as 35 pills at once while in form three because the 18 pills he had taken while in primary school did not work.

“I believe that depression has a cure. It’s nothing that cannot be dealt with but suicide is also tied to depression so for us to stop suicide we have to deal with depression. I am talking from experience because, a lot of people don’t know this, but when I was in class eight, I attempted suicide.

"I took 18 pills, I was on some antibiotics, I was unwell and at one time I got to a point and said you know what I’m going to take them all the medicine that I had. 18 pills.

“Form three again I decided I’m going to do the same and I took 35 pills this time, because 18 didn’t kill me so 35 will, and you know what people did not understand why a 17 year-old would be committing suicide, a 14 year-old would commit suicide,” said Ekirapa.

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So how did he get here? She narrated that,

“for me, it was because of the continuous negativity that was around me. I grew up as a sickly and people around me thought I was always faking sickness to get out of school, my own parent didn’t believe me so I thought you know what, I’m a burden so how about I just take my own life.

"So I did it and I tried twice but I didn’t die and I remember countless times asking God why didn’t you take me, why didn’t I die and I remember when I woke up and thought why am I awake here in school I thought I was going to wake up in heaven… you know what suicide will take and robe you of your potential, ” she added.

The solution,

“I look at my life right now and I say if I had killed myself how many people would have missed out on what God has done in my life? God has blessed me, opened doors for me, given me a platform to minister. I wouldn’t have done this if I had killed myself many years. You see in the grave there are no opportunities…

“Start focussing on what can work now, you have lost things, its ok, pick yourself up from the ground, dust yourself up and start strategizing again. God has given us everything that pertains to life…” She posted

Early this year, the TV host shared how she struggled to be where she is, from lacking food, rent to being in a loveless relationship.

“I get on my knees every time I remember what my story was a few years ago . The days i survived by having a packet of milk and mandazi for supper and then sleept waiting for the next day. The days I went through my phone book a hundred times looking for whom to call just to ask for bus fare to school.

"The times when the month would come to an end and I would sit wondering where rent was going to come from. The years I survived on the same clothes and shoes because I could not afford to buy even a new pair of sandals. Now I break at His goodness.

"I celebrate when I head to the shop to buy more than one packet of milk. Now I rejoice when I can get into a matatu and pay fare then receive change eeiii!!”

She hosts Crossover 101 with Dj Mo.

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