Hubby denied me sex so I went to another man

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We have been using natural family planning methods which worked for a while but then I conceived our third child. My husband panicked and he opted to avoid sex rather than put me on any family planning method. I sometimes thought he wasn’t attracted to me anymore over time even my self esteem went down. I reconnected with this good friend of mine and shared with him the things I was going through. Over time, I developed feelings for him and we even got intimate. I felt bad about this and blame myself for being weak and unable to control myself but I also blame my husband for leading me to other men. My husband now knows about this and we have had really fought because of this. I am now in love with this guy but then again, I don’t want to break my family. Please advise me on what I can do about this... {Rose}