
Guilt was a word only for them and not for me in my world until recently when the repercussion of a heinous mistake I committed started glaring at me sending unforgiving rays. Fear has engulfed me ever since and suicidal thoughts engross my mind. I have a young and very beautiful family that I would shield with my very life yet spasms of guilt seem to be putting a distance between us. Every time I remember what happened one night in September 2015, I shudder in self-blame and shame.