Am I beautiful enough?

In a world that is dominated by appearances, one of the most outstanding truths is that the prettier and slimmer you are, the easier life is for you. However, how do you gauge what is beautiful and what is not? When did we sit down and decide that a woman with no acne was more deserving than a woman with a bit of freckles? When was it decided that a smaller number on the weighing scale automatically translated to beauty? Why it is that now society is finally 'making space and accepting the BBW?' When was it decided that big was bad? Why was it ever wrong to be beautiful in thick skin? 

Society says, "Be yourself but no, not like that". Walk like this so that they say you are confident, talk like this so that they know you are 'updated', eat like this so that you don't become like one of those big girls, dress like this so that they see you know fashion and live like this because there is nothing wrong with being yourself but there is everything wrong with you being yourself like that. Change this, people will not like you. Dress like this, you don't want them to think you are a whore, or “wewe ni mshamba”.