Why I will never cheat on my wife again

WHISPERS: How I escaped Hell's gate where someone swallowed my left ear pinna.

I no longer believe that I still exist in planet earth. I feel dead and could I be living I would readily repent my sinful life; understanding death is everywhere. Initially, I thought of 'Jesus' as a mythical creature which never existed; to me the name was an exclamation which even the devil would habitually use. Whenever my wife's pastor visited; in the sense he was spreading the gospel to me; I rebelliously scorned with my deceptive mind insisting that my faith couldn't go beyond an outdoor Catholic. Besides, I couldn't make it forgetting Eritrea as my promised land.