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'My brother killed my six children and husband - but I forgave him'

By Mirror | May 1st 2019

Of course Monica Kambbi still sees it vividly 25 years on.

The image of her six small children, some of the youngest victims of Rwanda’s genocide, whimpering in the red dirt for hours before they were finally able to die.

Their suffering haunts her more than the attack itself, carried out with wooden clubs spiked with nails.

And the fact all she could do was helplessly creep between each small body, holding their hands.

But there is another image, too, almost as hard to recall a quarter-century on: that of the familiar faces of two of their murderers.

Because in Rwanda, the mass killing of mainly Tutsis by Hutus was not reserved for strangers.

Monica Kambbi with her brother, Paul Twahirwa.

It was not even uncommon for it to happen within families, where marriage had once happily blended the two ethnic groups.

Those two men were Monica’s own brothers, like her, Hutu - and unlike her Tutsi husband who they also killed, and her children deemed Tutsi simply because he was, they are still alive today.

What’s more, although both went to prison, where one remains, the other was released after ten years when he confessed and begged contrition, and now lives in Monica’s village with his own family.

Almost one million were murdered in Rwanda within just 100 days between April and July 1994, and to most looking in, 25 years would not be long enough to even contemplate forgiveness of the killers - let alone if they were your flesh and blood.

Yet sitting on a rock in front of her mud home, Monica, 57, says she has finally forgiven, and then introduces me to her brother, Paul Twahirwa, 50, who sits down beside us.

Donatila Nabebabiri who adopted her Hutu son David Imanairambona.

“I can say I love my brother, and he is also my friend,” she says, simply.

He approaches me stiffly, offering a hand but keeping his head bowed. I struggle to shake it.

But with Monica, there is an easy rapport hard to witness at first; an arm around her thin shoulder as she recalls fondly carrying him on her shoulders as a girl.

It took 13 years before she could start this process, but he begged.

“I never thought I could talk to him again, when I looked in his eyes I could see it all - but I had to.

“I needed to heal. Even now hearing him talk about it is...,” she pauses, falling silent. “I don’t forget,” she continues. “But I forgive.”

The genocide here was an acute eruption of longstanding ethnic divides between Hutu and Tutsi, who for centuries have lived side by side, suffering outbursts of violence.

Monica’s father was Hutu so she and her brothers were, too, but when she married at Tutsi he was accepted without problem.

The International Alert 'dialogue club' is held every week in Rwamiko, where Rwandan genocide survivors and perpetrators meet.

However, the years before the genocide saw the whipping up of old ethnic divides, and when the violence reached their home in the southern province, she, her husband and children, aged 12 to four, one girl and five boys, became a target for Hutu militias who part forced, part indoctrinated, locals to join them.

Paul, a carpenter, can barely explain why he did, but he is at least brutally honest.

He maintains he never hated Tutsis, but shamefully recalls mounting pressure and fear.

He says: “Officials were going door to door, telling us even a Tutsi who was our own child would be our enemy, and that if we didn’t kill, we would be killed.”

He and the group tracked Monica and her children to where they cowered on top of a hill, killing her husband on the way. He says he “felt numb”, as if mob mentality dulled his senses.

“I was sober,” he insists when I ask, dearly hoping he wasn’t. “I loved those children, but in that moment I had no feeling for them. The group was crazy.

“Immediately I was ashamed, they were my nephews, my niece,” he says softly.

Monica recalls afterwards: “I was holding them, kissing them, telling them they were going to another life.

“I waited a long time until they died. Then I dragged branches and lay them on top of their bodies.”

Darkness has fallen. There’s no electric so I can’t see Paul’s face.

Then we hear a wailing like a wounded animal. Later, we discover a neighbour had been listening, and become traumatised, her own grief, like so many Rwandans’, still raw.

Monica fled to a refugee camp, and when she returned Paul was in prison.

Sleeping rough, traumatised, she struggled with alcohol addiction. Reconciling with Paul has helped her turn her life around.

That was made possible at a ‘Dialogue club’, run by peacekeeping charity International Alert, who began work here in 2007 and currently helps 50,000 people.

They specialise in bringing victims and perpetrators together.

Across this country the groups live side by side, and the old ethnic tensions must not be allowed to re-surface.

The latest official statistics show a rise in charges for ‘Genocide denial’, even though this carries a heavy fine or jail sentence.

Betty Mutesi, the country manager, explains the clubs weren’t always well received. “Organisations were working with perpetrators and survivors separately. They were shocked we were forcing reconciliation,” she says. “But people meet in markets or church anyway, it’s better to prepare them.”

Initially, Monica refused to attend, but Paul persisted. They both underwent counselling, and Monica eventually allowed him to build her home.

I go to the group’s meeting the following morning, under a gnarled tree.

I meet Jean Baptiste Sirwenda, 66, who admits he supervised the killing here.

The lady beside him, Agnes Nibibuka, 50, was bound and thrown into the river under his watch. By miracle, Agnes survived. The two are now on good terms.

Susan Nyilandaeme, 63, whose sons, 14 and 10, were killed and never found, struggles more to forgive.

She believes Paul knows where they are. Their exchange is painful, but essentially, they can speak openly.

“We say ‘We forgive you’,” she tells him, emotionally. “But still you keep mum.”

He protests, quietly: “If I had information I would tell you.”

Perhaps most importantly, it is the young who must be helped to forgive if tensions are never to rise again.

Emmanuel Bampiriye, 24, is one of around 20,000 children here born of genocide rape, suffered by 250,000 women.

He lives with his Tutsi mother, and has only seen his Hutu father, released from prison four years ago, once, on the street.

They didn’t speak.

He is now considering approaching him. “I feel the guilt of my father,” he admits. “If he asked for my forgiveness, I would forgive him. I feel that would help me shed the guilt I carry.”

Emmanuel is very clear he is neither Tutsi or Hutu, only “Rwandan”.

Being Hutu makes me feel good again

Donatila Nabebabiri, 56, wears a broad smile, as bright as her clothes, and says it is because she is a mother again.

Her husband and five children were murdered in the genocide by Hutus; two boys, three girls, aged one to 12.

Afterwards, she felt life was finished.

“It was over for me, I didn’t feel I wanted more children,” she says. “It was so painful, it was so hard to move on.”

But five years ago, she found David. Literally.

He was a baby, abandoned on the side of a red mud road by his poverty-stricken mother who could not care for him any longer.

Donatila took him home. Now she is trying to officially adopt him.

“He calls me Mama,” she says. “Slowly, it’s coming back. I feel good. When I see him walk towards me, when he laughs.”

And then, the inconsequential detail that surprises even her.

“He is Hutu,” she admits, simply. “If I can adopt a Hutu child I am really healed.”

To help victims and perpetrators continue to reunite visit Global Giving.

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