After one too many nights filled with silent tears, I finally decided that it is foolish to fall in love with a charismatic man. Falling in love with a charismatic man can be compared to a child who calls a star his own and goes further ahead and names it.
You will look at this man with longing eyes and dream of the promising future you could share. You will make him the epitome of your existence and soon enough all your choices will revolve around him; but you see, a charismatic man will never be able to fully reciprocate your love. Just like the star, he cannot be possessed by one person. Just like star, he is meant to shine his light to the whole world. Therefore, for every sweet words and laughter you share and for every prayer you send his way, he has had thousands before and will have thousands to come.
Instead, fall in love with the shy brooding man. You will find that behind his facade of indifference and self-importance is a man full of surprises. With a little persistence, he will bloom just like the morning glory at the attention you shine his way. With time, you will be the center of his universe and all his thoughts and choices will revolve around you but unlike the charismatic man, this will not be a problem because you have always been a giver; always giving more than is needed.
The shy brooding man will compare you to the fictional characters he read in his lonely days and this will please you because those are characters he admires and cannot shake off despite their fictional state. He will be convinced that you are a reincarnation of these characters. A personal gift sent to him by the universe.
For the first time, you will know how it feels to actually matter to another and you will start making big demands out of this life. Together you will indulge into all dimensions of love: selfless care, shameless need and uninhibited longing.
With him you will not rush to fill the silence; scared that the silence will illuminate your incompatibility. Instead silence will be an old mutual friend and you will all sit side by side; alone together.
Or better yet you will be able to speak your mind without the fear of exposing your deep rooted insecurities. For once, you will tell him of the quotes that deeply resonate with you and the fictional characters you came to love you. You will have philosophical debates about life and death and you will do all this without feeling pretentious. You see, the shy man will be yours to have, but oh! The charismatic man will forever belong to the world.
