Media personality Nick Ndeda's Ndeda's ex-lover, YouTuber Muthoni Gitau, has opened up on a horrific incident she suffered at the age of 22 that left her with nothing but pain and addiction.
Narrating the ordeal during an interview with Engage Talk titled Healing From My Old Wounds, Muthoni said that one of her friend's roommates sexually abused her.
Since nobody understood her painful situation, the content creator turned to alcohol for solace.
On that fateful day, Muthoni recalls calling her friend late in the evening to ask if she could go over to his house in Wangige after her high school friend stood her up.
While there, Muthoni says her friend's roommate brought some friends over and later walked out.
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"My friend randomly decides to leave the room, he did not tell me why, he just left. The next thing I know is that the roommate was in the room and he locked the door. I was confused because I had not given any implication that anything would happen between us," she says.
"I told him, okay, you are drunk. Can we talk in the morning? But he went on to rape me. After he was done he walked out and continued merrymaking; then my friend came back into the room, got into the bed and faced the wall." ALSO READ: Nick Ndeda, wife Muthoni separate
The social media influencer said she tried to speak to a different friend about the ordeal, but she turned her down, arguing that the man did not rape her if he used protection.
Infuriated by the response she got from her trusted friend, Muthoni says she vowed to keep the matter to herself and, as a result, dived into taking alcohol to forget everything.
"Every coin I had went into buying vodka, whiskey and not even the good kind. I lived in darkness for such a long time, I don't even know how long. I would have moments where if nothing went right in my life, I would just start drinking," she says.
She adds, "It was not that the drinking was making me happy or anything, I think it was just making me numb. The one thing I did not want to do was feel. I did not want to feel my situation, I did not want to feel that my work was not working out."
The turning point for Muthoni was when she almost died from an alcohol overdose. A friend recommended a therapist and since then she has not gone back to her old ways.
"I stopped drinking after that and started going for therapy sessions. I have been working on myself since," says Muthoni.
Having had her alcohol intake under control, Muthoni says she still drinks, but occasionally
