My ex, Luther, always said that he loved me and that he would never hurt me. I promised him that he would be the first guy to break my virginity and claimed that he would wait for me until I was ready. I was 16 years then and I vowed to myself that I would never have sex till until I was 18 years.
My best friend Triza kept telling me that she envied my relationship and that she would give anything just to have one like that. She was the most loving and supportive friend I had ever met. I loved her with all my heart and we had promised each other to stay friends forever.
One day, during the school holidays, I went to Triza’s place after I had cancelled my plans to go to the doctor. I knew she was home and so I did not bother calling her. When I got there I went straight to her bedroom as that was her favorite part of the house. What I saw when I opened the door is an image I would wish to completely rub off my head.
My best friend was on top of my boyfriend and they were making out as if the world was going to end on that particular day. They were kissing and touching as if they were going to die the next minute. For a moment, I felt like I was paralyzed. I did not move and I became dumb and numb.
I felt like letting out a loud scream and beat them up but I couldn’t. I did not have the strength to scream nor beat anyone. It was the worst feeling ever. After about one minute of standing there, which felt like an aeon, Triza turned and saw me standing at the door. She immediately jumped out of the bed and came straight to me telling me that she could explain.
I rushed out of the door and went home. I knew they could not follow me since they were both naked. No explanation could ever cover up for what I saw. I was so angry with both of them. I did not want to talk to either of them although they kept coming to our house. I could not tell my mum or anyone because it was too embarrassing.
I broke up with my Luther and ended my friendship with Triza. Triza asked her mum if they could move to another estate because she could not bear the pain of me hating her. 6 years later, Luther still claims to love me and that he still wants to be with me. He was my first love but what he did to me is unforgivable. The problem is I still have feelings for him. What should I do?
