Loneliness Doesn't Kill; Alcohol Is Barren

LONELINESS DOESN’T KILL; ALCOHOL IS BARREN

My chums, newly, have found friendship by means of intoxification. It makes them sociable. I however cannot power such foul remedies inside my mouth to con my loneliness. My loneliness is all I got and when the alcohol drives away, it’s the same thing my pals we’ll have as well.

So they said loneliness can kill? But then again, what is this notorious embryo that everybody hates to death and only I seem to enjoy when it tatters me to pieces? While, it all starts when trust is broken, then a crack forms in the so fragile organ, the heart, and within a span of a short period, a big hole germinates in your soul, then it serenades an uncomfortable painful feeling, and you just feel extraordinary as emptiness marries you. And all you want is to pluck your heart off, completely from you’re the insides of your chest.

And this is where people like my friends get it all wrong, taking alcohol to calm, cheat and mass this terror christened loneliness. Remember in life, nothing is that bad, until you take a back seat and let bad situations have control of you, just like you let loneliness have the wheel and you end up fertilizing alcohol in your tummy, and in short time you look like a member of parliament yet your stomach is empty, and while your pockets are blank too and believe me, this is the worst form and reason of entering in a sucked up kind of religion. You’ll never progress in life.

You know, that hole that yearns, dances to be satisfied, that huge crave, need, that loneliest moment in your life, when you watch your whole world fall apart, and you blink blankly or just let tears have the gear, that’s when you really need to be by yourself and get to know what you are really made off.

I know the crashing waves of pain that sing so loud deep in your heart is not just a force you would love to compete with, that loneliness that hugs the curves of your heart and tells you am the master and I’ll fill you up with darkness that will shine so hard, and the sparkle will amaze everybody is not an energy to consider to war with, but believe me, when you hit the bottom of your being, when you smell trouble from your dreams, when you have nothing or nobody by your side, that’s the exact moment you need yourself the most. You don’t need that stupid person that broke your heart, you don’t need that friend that promised in good and in worst, you don’t need your mama’s laps, no, you just need yourself to fill that hole.

See, I’ve always found refuge in my poetry; it’s my savior, my everything, anywhere, anytime. others find music as their gate-away, most people cry, for some it helps and for some those hot tears that spanks your cheeks and turn them so swollen don’t help, there are many ways to gate away from loneliness but am 150 % that whenever you confront loneliness, when you counter attack, and dribble all creative ways of scoring against it, then you can tackle it to its roots, leave it begging and have the best last laugh.

But don’t be stupid, and attack yourself by taking alcohol and other low known remedies like weed. See alcohol gives you unlimited tolerance for foolishness. It swings you and excites the magical senses of human nature, and then crushes you so hard to the ground after it divorces you again and again  and reminds you a cold fact, that your loneliness is still there and it’s still the king of you.

You’ll will agree with me, that every word that a drunkard man speaks in the middle of his darkness fades away like rain on a windy day when the alcohol decides to dissolve. Alcohol replaces God in one. People feel like they are god, like there are the real thing, but in mere facts, it makes one a folly of themselves. It transports one to supremacy and areas he sees as the master of his destiny, but immediately reality kicks in, that’s when loneliness parades again and you find yourself in the same cup, ready to be cheated and drunk by alcohol and life now shifts you further away to a land of misery and chances of you ever dreaming again are zero percent.

I know you’re thinking am mad. Like how can you love this thorn call loneliness, this dangerous sow that pricks and leaves a bad taste on the heart? But believe me, yes loneliness leaves one in a dark room, you feel suicidal, you get so depressed, it’s very awful beyond anything, but never wish somebody will walk in your dark room, cure or feed and fill that hole. An outsider can never mend that terrible itchy solitude, be it a person or alcohol. The only thing that will cure and mend that space is yourself. See the strongest man is not who lived a hundred years in the desert, it’s not a Masai warrior who killed a lion, it’s the person mostly alone, it’s you lonely.

So, don’t rush to the bar and hide yourself in bottles of alcohol, and think you’ll be save, just protect yourself from loneliness and depression. Be braver, and nothing will ever exhaust you. Alcohol is the biggest destructions of human race, and we have all seen the turmoil it has left on our dear mother Kenya.